A bold, edgy + co-ed spiritual membership community where sacred ritual meets taboo, playful shadow work - and nothing is off-limits.
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Not for beginners. This is an advanced, refined space where serious seekers land to keep evolving when the crystals, "codes" + love-and-light manifestation coaching are no longer cutting it.
If youâve outgrown your New Age era + youâre ready for depth, discipline + real spiritual lineage rooted in Tibetan Buddhism - youâre in the right place.
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Founding Member enrollment (July 2025) is officially closed - but your chance to join isnât gone for good.
Get on the waitlist below to be the first notified when doors reopen later in 2025.
You're already powerful.
You've been doing the work.
The Underground is where we turn the dial all the way up.
Inside this monthly membership space - rooted in Tibetan Buddhist practice - you deepen into the version of you who's:
đ„ Clear. Confident. Courageous.
đ Receptive. Radiant. Deeply turned on by your life.
đ€ Spiritually grounded. Intuitively led. Unshakably self-trusting.
This isnât about âhealing.â Itâs about self-mastery.Â
Itâs about becoming the version of you who leads with devotion, lives with an open heart + refuses to dim your power ever again.
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Note: This is an evolving + open-ended membership - not a cohort or closed course with an end-date.
Enrollment for Founding Members (July 2025) is currently closed.
Get on the waitlist below to be the first to know when doors reopen in 2025.
KEEP ME IN THE LOOP
The doors will reopen again in 2025...
The Underground is part Magical Mystery School (imagine: sexy Harry Potter vibes đ), part Spiritual Speakeasy, part off-grid Dharma Temple for the rebellious.Â
Private. Niche. Subversive. Taboo.
Definitely not mainstream.
For the ones whoâve outgrown the New Age starter pack - now seeking devotional structure, spiritual discipline and a richer lineage to grow into for the long haul.
For people who care more about liberation than likes + follows.
For those who resonate with the Hozier lyric, "...my lover's got humor, she's the giggle at a funeral..." because this is your kind of irreverence.Â
Whoâve always been a little too wild or too dark for the typical curated "conscious" scene.
Who crave real intimacy - with love, with the shadow, with their own unapologetic truth.
âĄI'm talking: Tantric Monk meets Heavy Metal Frontwoman.đ€đŒ
And yes, itâs as hot, alt + untamed as it sounds.
If thatâs you?
Youâre gonna want in.
HOP ON THE 2025 WAITLISTVibe Check: What It Feels Like Inside
Picture it...
Weâre downtown, at a gritty, cult-classic coffee shop on the Lower East Side.
Weâre curled up in a corner booth - talking shadow work over tarot cards, sipping almond lattes with a triple shot of espresso, vibing to a moody, sexy R&B playlist à la Sade-meets-Chris Brown in the background.
Thereâs a hidden staircase in the back (and only the regulars know).
Downstairs? A dimly lit, velvet-drenched BDSM dungeon.
(Obviouslyđâïž -Â I was definitely a Dominatrix in a past life, lol)
The lights are dim. Smoky sweet incense is in the air. Itâs sacred, subversive + a little dangerous. It feels like unapologetic freedom.
Thatâs The Underground.

Glow-Ups, Breakthroughs + Big-Ass Shifts
(aka: proof this shit works when you show up)
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I Didn't Want Another Love-and-Light-Only Echo Chamber...
Here's Why I Created This Space (for real):Â
Most of my biggest breakthroughs didnât happen in a yoga studio or on some bougie $5K retreat in Bali.
They happened alone - on the floor, in front of my altar - during heartbreak, an identity death or that liminal void, where Iâd taken a terrifying leap of faith but nothing made sense yet.
And at a certain point I realized: I'd outgrown the surface-level, love-and-light spiritual tools. So when my soul whispered, âYouâre here for higher service,â I knew I had to elevate my practice - and find a lineage that could actually hold it.
Shortly after that, I âaccidentallyâ (lol...karma đ) landed in a Buddhist class that cracked me wide open.
âĄThe first time I heard the dharma (aka the Buddhist philosophy), a rush of energy came over me. It felt like opening the most magical + potent spellbook at Hogwarts, while ALL the secrets of the Universe came spilling out. đ đź
â€ïžâđ„ I knew I was home. Things started rapidly aligning after that moment.
đ Less than a year later, I took my first set of vows.
đ From that point on, everything changed.
The deeper I committed â to myself, to the path, to actual (practical) transformation of my mind â the more life met me with opportunities to share these teachings + serve others.Â
Not from ego, but from embodiment. Because when you really do the work, the work starts to work through you.
But before I found my sangha, before I took vows (and was navigating those hard moments on my own) -Â I kept wishing I had a space to land with people who just fucking get it.
Not another vanilla, âgood vibes onlyâ healing circle.
Not a stiff, dogmatic-rituals kinda space, either.
I craved something edgier. Realer.
I wanted a space that welcomes all of you:
đ„ Where the shadow isnât something to bypass - itâs part of the offering
đ„ Where you never have to dim your edge, your eroticism or your rage to be seen as âspiritual enoughâ
đ„ Where deep, smart, irreverent souls whoâve outgrown the New Agey rituals can actually keep evolving - over time, with zero performative bullshit
đ„ Where you can bring your whole self - undiluted - and be met with real respect
Bottom line: If youâre no longer looking for the entry-level portalâŠ
If youâre seeking something richer - rooted in devotion, discipline + raw, unfiltered truth...
The Underground was made for you.

Being Here Won't Just "Shift Your Energy"- It'll Change Your Life.
(Because letâs keep it 100%: you don't just want to meditate or self-reflect. You want real results + an abundant, hot, joyful existence.)
Love, Intimacy + SexÂ
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đ„ Shift from attachment-seeking to embodied love â where desire is devotional, not desperate (no more spinning in anxiety + self-doubt)
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đ Stop fawning, self-censoring, silencing yourself or performing to feel loved
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đ Reignite a dead bedroom - without blame, frustrating (redundant) convos or forced intimacy
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đȘStay open during rupture or conflict without collapsing into avoidance, analysis paralysis or emotional shutdown
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đ Feel confident, glowing + at ease in your body when you look in the mirror (instead of using it as a site for self-punishment)
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đŻïžAwakening eros as a living, devotional current, not a side quest for sexiness (it's nobody else's responsibility to make you feel hot AF)
Power, Boundaries + Identity
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đ§ Make clear decisions from your inner authority - not panic, overthinking, guilt or people-pleasing
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đ„ Align with dharma over ego, even when itâs wildly uncomfortable - or means walking away from comfort (the wrong job, the wrong partner, the wrong version of you)
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âĄStop leaking energy + bending over backwards trying to be liked - reclaim your fucking power
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đȘSay ânoâ with zero guilt + âyesâ with full-body clarity
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đ¶ïž Finally feel like the most unapologetically you version of yourself - no shrinking, no masks
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đžÂ Magnetize opportunities for sacred leadership through integrity - your presence + lived experience speak louder than gimmicks
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âšÂ Trust your intuition more than your trauma loops - and actually follow throughÂ
Devotion + Discipline Meets Peace + Liberation
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đżÂ Root your spiritual practice in ancient lineage (not New Age trends) - and stop bypassing your dark side
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đ§š Unravel karmic entanglements -Â especially the seductive ones disguised as soulmates đ
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đ§Ź Rewire the mental patterns that keep you stuck in self-doubt or unworthiness
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đ§ââïž Let devotion become your anchor - so the external chaos doesnât shake your internal peace
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đ€Â Stop chasing external validation to feel safe - your inner stability leads, the blessings follow
This is the kind of karmic recalibration that doesn't just shift your mood for 5 minutes - it reprograms your entire reality, from the inside out.
You already know the life you want...and this can take you there.
I WANT IN!Think 10 minutes a day can't change your life?
Think again...Â

What Youâll Get Inside
Hereâs what your months inside The Underground will actually look likeâŠ
đ€Â A Monthly Theme to Anchor You
Each month, we'll explore an intentional theme. Something that's alive in the orbit. A provocative, disruptive or playful thread to help you rewire how you relate to your life, power + relationships.
đ„ One Daily Meditation Practice
Youâll get one potent Tibetan Buddhist practice (15 mins or less) to repeat daily that's aligned with the monthly theme. These are not entry-level - they're designed for karmic purification + clarity that actually sticks.
đ„ Mid-Month Transmission
Pre-recorded, video format. Raw storytelling, Buddhist teachings, Existential-kink style shadow work and/or creative rituals to integrate the monthly theme. Watch anytime, on your own terms.
đ§Â Private Telegram Temple
A broadcast channel where I'll drop audio or written spicy riffs, unfiltered truth + behind-the-scenes insight a few times a week to stay connectedÂ
đŻïžÂ A Self-Led (But Deeply Held) Spiritual Community
No Zoom fatigue. No information overload. No group therapy energetics. No redundant chat forum. Just a private portal + quiet field of others doing the real work.
âĄÂ And Yes⊠the Membership Will Evolve As We Grow
Since this membership is open-ended + ongoing, we may eventually (think: fall 2025) open the doors to live calls, Q+As or more integrative support tiers - but weâre starting stripped down + powerful on purpose.
If that turns you on? đ„
LET ME GET ON THE 2025 WAITLISTThis Isnât Your Basic-Bitch Breathwork CircleÂ
What Makes The Underground Unique
It's spiritual discipline, but in a leather jacket + telling a dirty joke, lol. đïžđ„.
Yes - I work hard...but I play hard, too! đ Around here, laughter is medicine.
(in fact, I think a lot of people in this industry need to lighten the fuck up, lol)
Spiritual growth isnât supposed to feel like a punishment. And you're not a project who needs to prove you're worthy, either.
What weâre doing here isnât another thing to âget right.â
Your practice isnât penance â itâs reclamation.
And you canât get what Iâm sharing here from the Calm meditation app, a Hay House book or some weekend neo-tantra workshop.
This isnât recycled + regurgitated pop-spirituality.Â
Itâs rooted in a real lineage -Tibetan Buddhist wisdom passed directly from teacher to student for thousands of years - and filtered through years of daily practice + real-life application.
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So, yeah...my flavor's rare. đđ
đ Provocative
âïž Blunt
đŠ Dark sense of humor
đ„ Spiritual and erotic
⥠Not here to coddle your ego - Iâm here to challenge it (with love)
If your soul's craving playful rebellion, real devotion + spiritual practices that actually work ...
You belong here. đ«¶đŒ

Yes, this actually works - even after only 30 daysâŠ



đžÂ The Founding Member Rate is no longer available: $69/month
This offer expired on July 1, 2025.
The monthly investment will increase for all future members during the next round of enrollment (timing = TBD).
Get on the waitlist below to be the first to know when The Underground reopens later in 2025.
I WANT IN NEXT ROUND!Entry By Application Only
đ The Underground isnât for everyone -Â and that's the point.
Iâm not gatekeeping as a flex. Iâm protecting the integrity of what's being built here.
The practices I teach are nuanced - deeper than what you'll find in the mainstream - and they require emotional maturity, self-awareness, radical responsibility + a willingness to get uncomfortable.
Every person applies - even for this entry-level tier. If that excites you more than it scares you, keep reading.
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This space is curated intentionally + it's for you if you:
đ„ Want to grow through activation - not hand-holding or being spoon-fed
đ€ Can sit with discomfort, without bailing or expecting a rescue every time it gets hard
⥠Are turned on by the slow burn of deep devotion - not chasing novelty or quick dopamine hits
đż Have outgrown lightweight, New-Agey spiritual rituals + want something rooted in real lineage
đ Arenât afraid of your shadow, eros or unfiltered truth
đ Know you're not âtoo muchâ - you just haven't been in the right rooms
đ Have been circling the same kind of work for years - therapy, coaching, journaling, even some meditation - but now feel like youâve hit a major plateauÂ
â€ïžâđ„ Know thereâs a bolder, freer version of you under the fear + shame - and youâre done letting your insecurities call the shots
đ Are ready to learn the ancient Tibetan Buddhist methods to train your mind like a ninja of boundless love + limitless power
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You donât need to be some perfect practitioner (spoiler: no one is đ).
You just have to be radically honest about where youâre at - and ready to take full ownership of where you're going next.
Thatâs the bar, babe.
Still with me? You're probably one of us.Â
đđŒ Want to be the first to know when enrollment reopens later in 2025?
GET ON THE WAITLIST FOR NEXT ROUNDIf youâre ready to embody your unapologetic power, lead with devotion + live with a wildly-open heart...The Underground is calling.
Pre-Entry Intel
aka: everything else you need to know before you apply
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â€ïžâđ„ Who This Is Actually For
What if Iâve never meditated or practiced Buddhism before?
What makes this different from other "spiritual" monthly memberships?
Is this for women only or is it co-ed?
đ°ïž Time, Energy + Commitment
How much time will I need to dedicate to this monthly?
What if I fall off or miss a few days of the meditation practice?
What if Iâm âtoo busyâ to meditate every day?
Is this a course with an end date â or an ongoing membership? How long do I need to commit for?
đŹ Support, Payment + Application
Is there any community interaction, group support or live calls?
Will I get personalized support from you?
What's the refund + cancellation policy?
How does the application + enrollment process work?
Psst⊠enrollment will open again later in 2025.
For now, get on the secret waitlist - it's the only way in.
Drop your info below to be first notified when doors reopen later this year. đ€đ«đ„